Dear Crossworks Author
Jun. 12th, 2026 12:29 pmI use the same name everywhere so I am
beatrice_otter on AO3. Treats are awesome.
I would rather get a story you were happy with than "well, she said she liked x, so I guess I have to do x even though I don't like x and/or am not inspired that way." This letter is long with lots of suggestions and preferences if you find it helpful, but feel free to ignore it if it is not helpful. I'm fairly easy to please; I've been doing ficathons for a long time and am usually very happy with my gifts.
The most important thing for me in a fic is that the characters are well-written and recognizably themselves. Even when I don't like a character, I don't go in for character-bashing. If nothing else, if the rest of this letter is too much or my kinks don't fit yours, just concentrate on writing a story with everyone in character and good spelling and grammar and I will almost certainly love what you come up with.
I have an embarrassment squick, which makes humor kind of hit-or-miss sometimes. The kind of humor where someone does something embarrassing and the audience is laughing at them makes me uncomfortable. On the other hand, the kind of humor where the audience is laughing with the characters I really enjoy.
( General Likes and Dislikes )
Early 20th Century
Regency
Modern Day
Modern Day--Apocalypse/dystopia
Robots!
Wormholes and War
Modern Day: Hope and Community
Dealer's Choice
Grab Bag
I would rather get a story you were happy with than "well, she said she liked x, so I guess I have to do x even though I don't like x and/or am not inspired that way." This letter is long with lots of suggestions and preferences if you find it helpful, but feel free to ignore it if it is not helpful. I'm fairly easy to please; I've been doing ficathons for a long time and am usually very happy with my gifts.
The most important thing for me in a fic is that the characters are well-written and recognizably themselves. Even when I don't like a character, I don't go in for character-bashing. If nothing else, if the rest of this letter is too much or my kinks don't fit yours, just concentrate on writing a story with everyone in character and good spelling and grammar and I will almost certainly love what you come up with.
I have an embarrassment squick, which makes humor kind of hit-or-miss sometimes. The kind of humor where someone does something embarrassing and the audience is laughing at them makes me uncomfortable. On the other hand, the kind of humor where the audience is laughing with the characters I really enjoy.
( General Likes and Dislikes )
Early 20th Century
Regency
Modern Day
Modern Day--Apocalypse/dystopia
Robots!
Wormholes and War
Modern Day: Hope and Community
Dealer's Choice
Grab Bag
Books! Video Games! Art Fight! Movies!
Jun. 12th, 2026 11:49 amThank you very much for the well wishes on the previous post. I'm still a mess, but we're persevering! I'm supposed to be released for work on the 10th, but I don't think I'll actually be starting back until the 15th. Which is good, because I'm going through hella withdrawals from duloxetine. XD;;
I somehow read six books over the month of May! The Sworn Soldier series by T. Kingfisher (What Moves the Dead, What Feasts at Night, and What Stalks the Deep) started out very strong, but the third wasn't quite my jam.
We Are Always Tender With Our Dead by Eric LaRocca was a surprise! I decided to read this after the author gathered up bad reviews and used them as testimonials. What a weird, quietly horrific, ride. I devoured it; I haven't read like this in years. ] I'm looking forward to the sequel, even though I'm not entirely sure why. I'm not attached to any of these characters but the actions they take are awful and fascinating, and I'm really interested in seeing where this goes.
They Fear Not Men in the Woods by Gretchen McNeil was a book I'd read no reviews for, just picked it out because of the title, cover, and because I love natural horror. This was so good with a surprise queer relationship that I loved. It was a little slow to start and I think there were a few more characters than there needed to be (but we must have cannon fodder!), but I ended up loving this.
Down by Ally Bloom was very enjoyable....except the main romance. XD; I don't actually have a ton of tolerance for romance in books, but I didn't realize that until I started reading this book. I found myself incredibly frustrated with the two main dudes; all of the side characters were far more interesting. But it was still a good ride. :)
I've signed up for Art Fight! for the first time! I need to get all of my OCs in order! I need to create character references! I'm very excited to participate. :3 I have at least four WH40k OCs but I'm sure I can come up with more OCs in different fandoms/original work to add. :D Oh, Yesun Gesi, my warrior of light! I'm frantically drawing reference pictures and this has been so helpful in figuring out color schemes, weapon loadouts, and armor details. OH MY ROGUE TRADER! :D
Anyways, I have so many things to draw, I can't wait. :D
EDIT: I wrote everything above a couple of days ago, so now I am continuing from TODAY. I really need to start dating when I start writing a post, because the post will be open for days and I'll add onto it but sometimes that messes up context and shit. ANYWAYS. I have talked to my boss, they are VERY EXCITED to have me back (yay!), and I'm going down to four days a week. Prozac causes a bit of mania and also DREAMS, which I HATE, I haven't dreamt since becoming a habitual weed smoker and I LIKE IT THAT WAY. So I'm going to switch to taking in the morning and see if that helps.
cypher and I watched Mortal Kombat (2021), they for the first time, and you know what? I liked it much better this go-round. I freaking love the actors for Sonya, Jax, and Kano, and OH MY GOD LIU KANG IS ADORABLE??? Anyways. Still eagerly awaiting MK2 (which I just looked up and is available for streaming! when I get my first check, we're having a living room date night!). I'm just really proud that we managed to sit down and watch something! That was my first movie since last May. Of 2025. And much longer for Will! Kinda proud it was Mortal Kombat that broke that streak for us. XD
I somehow read six books over the month of May! The Sworn Soldier series by T. Kingfisher (What Moves the Dead, What Feasts at Night, and What Stalks the Deep) started out very strong, but the third wasn't quite my jam.
We Are Always Tender With Our Dead by Eric LaRocca was a surprise! I decided to read this after the author gathered up bad reviews and used them as testimonials. What a weird, quietly horrific, ride. I devoured it; I haven't read like this in years. ] I'm looking forward to the sequel, even though I'm not entirely sure why. I'm not attached to any of these characters but the actions they take are awful and fascinating, and I'm really interested in seeing where this goes.
They Fear Not Men in the Woods by Gretchen McNeil was a book I'd read no reviews for, just picked it out because of the title, cover, and because I love natural horror. This was so good with a surprise queer relationship that I loved. It was a little slow to start and I think there were a few more characters than there needed to be (but we must have cannon fodder!), but I ended up loving this.
Down by Ally Bloom was very enjoyable....except the main romance. XD; I don't actually have a ton of tolerance for romance in books, but I didn't realize that until I started reading this book. I found myself incredibly frustrated with the two main dudes; all of the side characters were far more interesting. But it was still a good ride. :)
I've signed up for Art Fight! for the first time! I need to get all of my OCs in order! I need to create character references! I'm very excited to participate. :3 I have at least four WH40k OCs but I'm sure I can come up with more OCs in different fandoms/original work to add. :D Oh, Yesun Gesi, my warrior of light! I'm frantically drawing reference pictures and this has been so helpful in figuring out color schemes, weapon loadouts, and armor details. OH MY ROGUE TRADER! :D
Anyways, I have so many things to draw, I can't wait. :D
EDIT: I wrote everything above a couple of days ago, so now I am continuing from TODAY. I really need to start dating when I start writing a post, because the post will be open for days and I'll add onto it but sometimes that messes up context and shit. ANYWAYS. I have talked to my boss, they are VERY EXCITED to have me back (yay!), and I'm going down to four days a week. Prozac causes a bit of mania and also DREAMS, which I HATE, I haven't dreamt since becoming a habitual weed smoker and I LIKE IT THAT WAY. So I'm going to switch to taking in the morning and see if that helps.
Today in two images
Jun. 9th, 2026 09:28 pmIt is finally summer, or at least summer-ish. (Never mind the frost warning two days ago.) I took a drive this evening and took this picture from a boat launch at a nearby river.

I also drew a birthday card for my sister and mailed it today.
( Under the cut )

I also drew a birthday card for my sister and mailed it today.
( Under the cut )
Sheer randomness
Jun. 7th, 2026 11:04 pmI was answering a comment over on AO3 on my old Stargate fic Old Soldiers Die Hard, the one with Annie the candystriper viewpoint OC, and got to thinking about the elapsed time since I posted it in 2006. She was probably meant to be in her late teens in the story, something like 17 or 18, which means that if she aged in realtime, she'd be in her late 30s now.
I was thinking about this in particular because it was always one of my most popular fics in that fandom, and people often asked for a sequel to that story about Annie grown up (and still do now and then). I don't mind being asked, although it is definitely not happening because I've long since moved on, but it's a bit wild to consider the passage of time in that particular way.
(Annie is grown up and doing fine, btw.)
I was thinking about this in particular because it was always one of my most popular fics in that fandom, and people often asked for a sequel to that story about Annie grown up (and still do now and then). I don't mind being asked, although it is definitely not happening because I've long since moved on, but it's a bit wild to consider the passage of time in that particular way.
(Annie is grown up and doing fine, btw.)
Babylon 5 WIP is finally complete!
Jun. 6th, 2026 08:21 pmI finished that Season 5 AU WIP! Finally!
The Living and the Damned (23K, Londo/G'Kar, mature-rated)
Fixit (of sorts) going AU in 5x18.
Some thoughts on writing WIPs under the cut (not spoilery for this fic in particular, more like general musings).
( Under here )
I don't know - what do you all think? Do you post WIPs? Do you read WIPs? It's been a long time since I've been in a fandom that had a lot of WIPs, prior to getting into Murderbot last year, which is almost like old-school ffn/LJ fandom with its very high number of WIPs. Including a lot of unfinished ones! And that's part of what got me back into posting some of my longer fic in WIP form, because there is a certain excitement and energy to it that I miss. Plus, in non-fandom spaces, I've enjoyed serialized media for a very long time (comics, webcomics, TV shows, etc). But it is obviously not without its down side, and I don't think I was prepared for how much trouble I was going to have finishing things when they're being written WIP-style.
The Living and the Damned (23K, Londo/G'Kar, mature-rated)
Fixit (of sorts) going AU in 5x18.
Some thoughts on writing WIPs under the cut (not spoilery for this fic in particular, more like general musings).
( Under here )
I don't know - what do you all think? Do you post WIPs? Do you read WIPs? It's been a long time since I've been in a fandom that had a lot of WIPs, prior to getting into Murderbot last year, which is almost like old-school ffn/LJ fandom with its very high number of WIPs. Including a lot of unfinished ones! And that's part of what got me back into posting some of my longer fic in WIP form, because there is a certain excitement and energy to it that I miss. Plus, in non-fandom spaces, I've enjoyed serialized media for a very long time (comics, webcomics, TV shows, etc). But it is obviously not without its down side, and I don't think I was prepared for how much trouble I was going to have finishing things when they're being written WIP-style.
This is the single most important thing....
Jun. 5th, 2026 10:47 pm... that I have ever read about, not just US politics, or politics in general, but arguably about the entire future of humanity:
Dr Stacey Patton: "You Can't Raise Children to Obey and Expect Them to Defend Democracy"
I have been trying to put together a post on this for, literally, years now, and having a failure more of nerve than anything, so I am completely overwhelmed and downright grateful to hear someone with standing and a following get there before me. And, as you may have guessed, I have a bunch of "yes-and" concurring opinions about it, but I'll let you all go read hers instead of talking over her.
Dr Stacey Patton: "You Can't Raise Children to Obey and Expect Them to Defend Democracy"
I have been trying to put together a post on this for, literally, years now, and having a failure more of nerve than anything, so I am completely overwhelmed and downright grateful to hear someone with standing and a following get there before me. And, as you may have guessed, I have a bunch of "yes-and" concurring opinions about it, but I'll let you all go read hers instead of talking over her.
DNF report: The Living City
Jun. 3rd, 2026 09:25 amI picked up "The Living City" by Des Fitzgerald at the bookstore a few weeks ago because it sounded interesting - the book's core premise is that trying to make cities "greener" (in the sense of more trees, more connection to nature, more intentional planning of green spaces within urban spaces, etc) is antithetical to the purpose of a city. So I wanted to see what he had to say about that.
The answer is: very little. This is essentially a book-length manifesto about how the entire concept of a green city is rooted in early-20th-century racism and fascism. There are some interesting ideas in here, but for a book whose entire premise is that trying to change cities into something else is wrong, bad, and also fascist, there's a surprising lack of actual positivity about cities as they currently exist. He just doesn't like the concept of planned cities, and especially city planning with the intent of introducing more nature into cities, based on the idea that green spaces are a more natural human environment. But he rarely brings up existing cities except to talk about how much he hates them, specifically. Paris? Awful. Copenhagen? Worst city he's ever been in. New York? Soulless grid. There's one chapter that opens with several pages dissing on Melbourne, Australia, for wanting to preserve its self-image as "a genteel outpost of European colonialism" because the residents are upset about all their trees dying in a drought. He doesn't seem to hate London as a whole (I GUESS) but mostly talks about it in the context of "fuck these specific neighborhoods in particular."
In case you're thinking this is because he'd rather be in the country - definitely not! He also hates the country. The worst thing about making cities greener is that it makes them more like the country. He refers to the part of Ireland he grew up in as "a bog" which he was glad to escape. The country is also terrible and the last thing cities want to do is be more like the country.
The truly baffling thing about this book is that it contains exactly zero content about the main thing I picked it up for: to find out what alternative he's proposing. Trees and other green spaces have obvious benefits that even he makes a nod to every now and then (cooling things down, trapping water, supporting wildlife, beneficial effects on the mental health of their residents, etc), plus most people who live in cities like them, and I was wondering what he was going to propose as an alternative, and he just - doesn't! What I knew from reading the blurb on the back of the book - that he feels cities are meant to be chaotic, grimy, full of machines and people but lacking in plants - is exactly as much as I know after reading 2/3 of the book. I guess I was expecting a paean to how cities in their modern chaos are flawed but great, and instead I got a book about how cities are almost uniformly terrible, but planned, green cities and the country are even worse, and also planting trees is a fascist tool to pacify the working class.
I didn't really DNF on purpose, so much as I put it down because I was reading other things and just never picked it back up again because the more time that went by without dealing with this guy's relentless negativity, the less I wanted to go back to it. So I guess it's a DNF.
The answer is: very little. This is essentially a book-length manifesto about how the entire concept of a green city is rooted in early-20th-century racism and fascism. There are some interesting ideas in here, but for a book whose entire premise is that trying to change cities into something else is wrong, bad, and also fascist, there's a surprising lack of actual positivity about cities as they currently exist. He just doesn't like the concept of planned cities, and especially city planning with the intent of introducing more nature into cities, based on the idea that green spaces are a more natural human environment. But he rarely brings up existing cities except to talk about how much he hates them, specifically. Paris? Awful. Copenhagen? Worst city he's ever been in. New York? Soulless grid. There's one chapter that opens with several pages dissing on Melbourne, Australia, for wanting to preserve its self-image as "a genteel outpost of European colonialism" because the residents are upset about all their trees dying in a drought. He doesn't seem to hate London as a whole (I GUESS) but mostly talks about it in the context of "fuck these specific neighborhoods in particular."
In case you're thinking this is because he'd rather be in the country - definitely not! He also hates the country. The worst thing about making cities greener is that it makes them more like the country. He refers to the part of Ireland he grew up in as "a bog" which he was glad to escape. The country is also terrible and the last thing cities want to do is be more like the country.
The truly baffling thing about this book is that it contains exactly zero content about the main thing I picked it up for: to find out what alternative he's proposing. Trees and other green spaces have obvious benefits that even he makes a nod to every now and then (cooling things down, trapping water, supporting wildlife, beneficial effects on the mental health of their residents, etc), plus most people who live in cities like them, and I was wondering what he was going to propose as an alternative, and he just - doesn't! What I knew from reading the blurb on the back of the book - that he feels cities are meant to be chaotic, grimy, full of machines and people but lacking in plants - is exactly as much as I know after reading 2/3 of the book. I guess I was expecting a paean to how cities in their modern chaos are flawed but great, and instead I got a book about how cities are almost uniformly terrible, but planned, green cities and the country are even worse, and also planting trees is a fascist tool to pacify the working class.
I didn't really DNF on purpose, so much as I put it down because I was reading other things and just never picked it back up again because the more time that went by without dealing with this guy's relentless negativity, the less I wanted to go back to it. So I guess it's a DNF.